Riiiiight....

And this, my gahment believes, will make me remember to be courteous.

Yeah, sure.

and here it comes...

apparently the results for the test here are released over the whole week, with level 1 getting their results early this week and level 4 getting theirs today.

since mine was level 3, mine came yesterday. (i knew because i was lurking at a forum where people were opening their envelopes in front of the computer.) unfortunately, i had my ballet class, so i only could get my grubby hands on it at 10pm.

now, i knew for sure i was going to pass. so now it was just a matter of knowing how well i passed. my aim was 350. i thought i might miss it by a few marks.


(guest appearance by moyashimon stickers)

the envelope. i was tearing it open the moment i got into the house, shaking it to get the results slip out.



there was a huge silent scream moment. full marks for listening? are you sure? ARE YOU SURE? (my sis asked the same question, though the nuances might have been different LOL.)

damn. i was planning to give myself a 40 point berth for level 2. so that means...i have to get 346?! muri da...

now what?

bad economy = difficulty in finding job. i have one for another 4 months but after that, i might have trouble feeding myself, let alone save another few more thousands.

i'm now trying to survive on less than $500 per month, with the bulk of my salary going into my japan funds. even though that's not going to be enough. before buying anything, i ask myself if it was more necessary than another day's rent in japan.

i'm also spending $200 per month on japanese classes in preparation. this is something i can't save on, since theoretically, it will help me save money by ensuring i get put in a higher level class when i do get there.

so now what? there really isn't an answer, is there?

updates

well, they sent me a nice note saying they didn't want me, which is not entirely unexpected. i wouldn't want me too.

that said, i am now in need of 20 thousand dollars so that i can go by myself. which would probably be more interesting.

since this year is supposed to be a very lucky year for me, *tilts head upwards* rain some cash down on me this year, willya!

新年あけましておめでとうございます！

金曜日から仕事を始める。
ちょっと嫌いけど、お金が要るから。。。
今年日本へ行けるか？　知らないね。。。

まあ、何とかなるさ。。。
今年もよろしくおねがいします！

I start work on Friday.
I don't really like it, but I need the money.
Can I go to Japan this year? I don't know.

Well, it'll be fine somehow.
Please take care of me this year too!

trying to break a bad habit (or really not really trying that hard...)

yes, too much free time on my hands have resulted in me having an extremely bad habit of staying up all night watching JE.

it's...well, look, the internet is only really fast in the middle of the night when everyone else is asleep and for some strange reason i only find the really interesting stuff after 11pm and by the way, the boys are really more funny when they were juniors and...

it's at times like this that i realize why people have jobs (besides the money).

it makes you sleep at reasonable hours.

(tomorrow, my sis is going to get a surprise when she realizes what i was watching all night tonight. hehe.)

最近寝ないから。。。

最近新しい計画がある。私は教師より、生徒になりたい。
お金がないので、今行けなくて、本当に悲しい(T_T)。
そうして、今働かなきゃ、貯金もしなきゃならない。
たぶん、２０１０年か２０１１年か行けるね？
ちゃんと祈っている！
神様、お願い～～

ああ、今おなががすいた！